Light is gone after the sunset, what i'm doing is wandering. About everything that i've reached, and about another life goal i want to achieve. Every single night, i always do the same. It's more easy for me to take a precious moment in the night, breath the fresh air, keep calm and think about what i'm going to do next. Life is always unpredictable, as far as i go in my life path, i never try to avoid that sometimes plan it's not gonna work. When i'm down with life cirmustances,i just try to clear my perspective, and keep moving forward. There are too many chance that i've lost and never see that again. I've made some mistake, in this cruel life, but i always believe that life is a beautiful struggle.
At night i can make everything clear even for a couple hours, flash back some good and bad memories, try to take some lesson from it. There's no regret if i can understand the lesson from my life journet. When i wake up in the morning, i had my usual activities, and then after all of the challange in a day, i came back to my house, and before slept, i did the same thing, re-arranged my plan for the next day. Sometimes i felt really bored because mostly i already knew what's gonna happened for my day. I want a big revolution, but somehow, i'm confused how i could realize that. There's too many mystery in my life, i did everything i could to get through it, and it's almost made me forgot about what i'm going to realized. I've been in this city for the last three years. There's too many bad things happened in my life. I didn't really expected about that, it's my decision to take the risk, but i never realized the consequence is more worst than everything.
My biggest revolution happened five months ago. When someone came into my life. She have changed everything about my life. I didn't see it's coming. I never regret to take this life with you. I just felt really guilty when i'm the reason when you sad, but overall it's just a relationship story. I don't know how to describe it very clearly, i'm just proud after what she have done for me. I was very surprised, it never happened before in my life. I'm very happy, but the sadness moment is when we have argued the different main ideas, and i almost lost her. I think about that, when i'm really dissapointed why i didn't want to gave in and let her opinion became the conclusion. I have learned a lot from my life experienced, but in some case it's not really help me to figure out the solution.
When the night falls, i couldn't barely breath, it's seem's i'm gonna lost everything. She had a really good reason why i choose to win, and never give up deal with all of the challange in this life. She always became my motivation, and i don't want to let her down again because of me. So far until this day, we're still together. If i were a sniper, and then she is my spotter. The relationship between a sniper and his spotter is very important. First and foremost, the two depend on each other for survival. Sniper teams work in the no-man's-land between or behind battle lines. They often have little or no support from their unit, and if they don't accomplish their mission, the safety of the whole platoon may be compromised.
Being the spotter in a sniper team is a sort of sniper apprenticeship. The sniper is the team leader. He coordinates with command to put together the mission. In the field, he has the final word in determining the route, position, rendezvous point and escape route. A spotter learns in the field from his sniper and then eventually gets his own team to lead. You can imagine that, she is more than important for me. Not only just make me happy and feel confident to face everything, she also to guide my life and aware me if there's somethings wrong.
If one of us fail to do our duty, and then our relationship is over. We've already work together and we know each other so well especially the characteristic, emotion, love, and everything else. I just need more time, to be more wiser than before, i'm her leader, it's depend on me where i'm gonna lead her, to the ruin or the glourious day for us, it's our wedding day, and we're still waiting to realize that when the time has comes. The most important thing to do is keep believe each other, that's the foundation how strong you will not give up when the problem try to seperate us. I try to beat my myself first. Sometimes, the hardest thing to change is my mind. I want to be responsible for the decisions in my life at all cost. I will bring her to the next level, and start a greatest beggining again.
Every night, i fall asleep with you in my heart, i promise to be the warrior who fight all your nightmare and the messenger to bring all your sweet dream.
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