Darkness Ocean

What should you do to keep your self  in line after a disaster year? yeah, just keep going even much slower than before. Never lost faith... sometimes it is just a word, based on the reality that i feel this moment everything is like impossible to get through. There's always a sun after the strom, light after dark, but when the fuck exactly? no one knows right? what i have to do is get motivated and motivated others. Man can only be beaten in two ways, give up, or dies. I'm really glad there's still thousand chance to rebuild my life. For this moment i feel really gone far away from my passion, but it's absolutely okay. I had a good reason for that. There's a responsbility in my shoulder that i need to carry on. One day, i feel like walking in the wrong direction. The circumstances for this damn journey have too many challanging problem to face. I get lost in my own mind, when i tried to figure the easiest way of everything and start all over again. Today is not the time to wake up and rise again. Keep optimistic even there's just a little chance to survive. Tired as fuck, for everything in this world, but i don't know why, i'm still hang on for the things that i never believed. I have too many lessons to learn, i don't know if i get stronger or weaker than yesterday. Let's see if everythings going well, I just imagine and believe good things happen to good people. I will do anything, again if i don't like it to regain my self-esteem and try to work hard and realize my dream and it's a long fucking way to go. Drowning in the ocean of failure, and more deeper every second. Running out of breath and died inside,