Second Sun

Brand new life is waiting ahead me. I'm so excited to begin all over again. Fresh start, fresh challange, and the most important thing is a brand new way of live. Everything will be different start from this second. I had a lot of disaster years so far and for sure i'm not proud of it. Shit happen, but i did everything to keep my head high and face it like a real warrior. I'm so grateful for what i have now. Living along a great family, and good friends who always been there during my hard time.

First thing first, i have to drag myself back into my passion who already lost because of social bullshit and then i did nothing to prevent it. Playing and making music is the most great thing i ever know. I just want to try my best to learn about music stuff and industry in my country for now. The second one is motorcycle racing. It's pretty great emotion when you riding motorcycle and overtake other riders when entering the corner. Late braking as late as possible to make a good manuver. Damn...i really miss doing that again. Seem's like i'm stuck in a cage for a while. Everything holds me back off from my grid. I was worried too much for some point in life. Overthinking killed my happiness and made be believe that i was so fucking weak to take an opportunity to moving forward.

I had a long journey vacation with my silent guardian couple months ago. I discovered a great scenery, new adventure, then new experience. I wish i could stay longer but time wasn't friendly with me back in the day. Adventure is the one things that keep me alive beside music and motorcycle. It helps me regain myself confidence. I just realized now i'm going to far from my dream, the ambition to conquer the world, just kidding. I need to get back to my life track and take my goal more seriously. I'm really afraid of being lazy and do nothing. Wondering good things will happen to me and that scenario will only be exist in my head. I'm still 23 years old need to learn more about how this cruel world goes. Whatever happen, i make a commitment to myself. I don't want to lost myself again in life's problem and cause overthinking then absolutely it just wasting my time. I did that before.

Everyday is a great day to learn, embrace the suck and make a memories that last a life time. Keep doing crazy and stupid things, taking the risk and always keep moving forward. I was desperate enough not to believe in my dream, that was a great nightmare for me. But now, i'm stand in the top of the world proving that problems can't make me down. Everything that was happened to me was great. Every life's mistake, failure, dissapoitment, and disaster moment make me a better and stronger person right now. I'm not wise enough because i still have a long way to go. Hopefully i won't mess this up over and over again. I have to be more focus to become the person i want to be and it's a must.

Darkness Ocean

What should you do to keep your self  in line after a disaster year? yeah, just keep going even much slower than before. Never lost faith... sometimes it is just a word, based on the reality that i feel this moment everything is like impossible to get through. There's always a sun after the strom, light after dark, but when the fuck exactly? no one knows right? what i have to do is get motivated and motivated others. Man can only be beaten in two ways, give up, or dies. I'm really glad there's still thousand chance to rebuild my life. For this moment i feel really gone far away from my passion, but it's absolutely okay. I had a good reason for that. There's a responsbility in my shoulder that i need to carry on. One day, i feel like walking in the wrong direction. The circumstances for this damn journey have too many challanging problem to face. I get lost in my own mind, when i tried to figure the easiest way of everything and start all over again. Today is not the time to wake up and rise again. Keep optimistic even there's just a little chance to survive. Tired as fuck, for everything in this world, but i don't know why, i'm still hang on for the things that i never believed. I have too many lessons to learn, i don't know if i get stronger or weaker than yesterday. Let's see if everythings going well, I just imagine and believe good things happen to good people. I will do anything, again if i don't like it to regain my self-esteem and try to work hard and realize my dream and it's a long fucking way to go. Drowning in the ocean of failure, and more deeper every second. Running out of breath and died inside,