When the end of the story become the hardest
beggining to get through…
It's not the final worst, the last pain, and the
only happines i ever had. Journey of life is a mystery, but everything happen
for a reasons. I had a great story, it was a great adventure, there's too much
struggle. Somehow i try to believe there still a chance against this challenge.
I know there's still a lot of progress to realize, chance to take, and
homework to complete. But overall, every single step that i've ever made almost
leads to nothing. I'm dissapointed after all of this, and i feel so curious
about the end of this story because i achieve nothing. The end is still
unpredictable i thought, but for other reasons, it might be the end of
everything. We all know that consequence always exist after we make a tactical
decisions. But unfortunately, not everyone in this world always ready for the
unexpected risk. Sometimes the hardest thing to change, is your own mind.
Once upon a day, I took a life
trip, it’s different than the others. I’d try to focus working on it. I
believed i’m good for this one, compare to others adventure, this is the best
of the best. Suddenly, everything changed after that. I wasn’t really good at
this situation at all, but i try to enjoy even under unexpected circumstances.
I’m not perfect, i made a mistake, but i always try to rebuild everything again
especially hope and keep believed. This adventure is the best one, yes, but
i’ve struggled too much. Challanged never stop slowing my step, problem every
problem almost became the conclusion of this adventure. I didn’t know
really how to say and this is the most greatest story of my life so far that i
ever had within the persistent determination. It was too fast, really, i
achieved nothing. I never felt the clock is counting down and this is my
biggest failure in the best way. Eventhough i already tried everything to hang
on too tight on this, but it’s really hard to believe, i lost everything for nothing.
I had a great vision in this chapter, i set some goals, and i never changed my direction. I know what’s the most important things in my life. That’s why when i lost everything, i still have my last weapon to come back again like the day before i lost in this part of life. Why does hello feel like goodbye? This word stuck in my head, because i never expected the end of this was very damn worst. It’s really hard for me to stand still, be strong without motivation, be brave without doubt. It’s just so damn….complicated !
The longest adventure left some memory to remember, a huge pain to
heal, and a great experience to take…
i try to forget the bitter taste after all of
this and again i try to keep moving forward. Create a big different after that
hard struggle, and continue set some goal in other life story. I never stop
trying, because i know struggle is part of life, dead is the only reason i quit
from my hard work on everything.
This is my last adventure like this. This is not
the first one, but comparing with the other adventure before, i guess i’m not
good at all even i always believe anything can happen. I will take this kind of
adventure again someday, but with less hard work, i think my experience will
guide me without let pushing too hard again and again. I’m feeling so ambition
without control at my last adventure, but stay positive is my foundation.
Now I believe which this part of life, there’s too many lesson from it.
There’s another great achievement will leads to my dream, now i’m working on
it.
Suffer after a biggest failure? Yes i felt that
before. But with a great experience that i had, It help me to reduce the pain
and motivated me to try another way to rebuild everything from the beginning
again.
Time heal the wound, after a great defeat, but it takes time and depends
on me how i face this challange of life. As always, try to rise again no matter
what it takes, i'm gonna die trying, to get what i want to. i never tired, i
always believe, i always will !
