I’ve made a mistake, life doesn’t come with intructions. Four months ago, i thought i was the very happy person, i found someone again after a long nightmare for the last three years. There’s too many beautiful moment between us, i never felt happy before like that moment. If someone make you sad, i’ll be the one who make him suffer. But it’s never happen between us. I made her sad, cried, and i just make her became really dissapointed because of me. I didn’t know it’s coming, everytime we used to talk everyday, but since you've left me alonei feel so empty. I know it’s really hard for me to get another chance, i don’t know how i can be the best one again for her. I’m dying without her, suffer and i’m awake it’s the biggest mistake tonight. I remember everything since we’ve first met until this second, it’s really hurting me, but i know you feel more dissapointed because what i’ve done to you. I don’t know if someday we will be seperate, alone, and try to open again a new leaf. It’s really hard for me, and i just wanna give up before the day will come. I become so melancholic when i trap in this scene. I just fear losing you, hurt you again, and i don’t wanna live anymore if i’m gonna spent the rest of my life without you
Tonight is the best regret in my life. I know there’s too many girl out there, but in my mind, no one can compare you my only one. No one like you, it’s impossible for me to realize another relationship with the other one. I used to be happy with you, and i don’t wanna happy with someone else. I’m not perfect, and i also made same mistake again and again. I can’t keep your feeling, it’s just my biggest fucking mistake. I want to surrender, if every day i live without you. I don’t plan about commit suicide, i just wanna someone stab me from behind to end all the pain and worst nightmare. I know i take this feeling too hard, but i cannot make everything better than before without you. You are my spirit, i found myself in you. I live without passion after you started hate me because of unpredictable problem. I try my best to become the best one for you again if you want me to be a part of your life again. I’m broken, useless, regretfull, what should i do to regain my spirit? I can’t do anything. You are my spirit, without you, i’m just a broken man, and dying slowly like a loser.
Everything leads to nothing at last. All i can do know is hope, there’s still a little bit chance for me to bring your smile again into the universe, and i’m the reason behind it.
