Morning Star

I believe in my dream. Dream is the one thing to keep me alive, and i always dare to face every obstacle in this cruel live even though sometimes i'm not ready yet. I do everything to own the skies, like a flying bird in the ocean, i'm free to discover the world, and there is no limit to live everyday with passion and try something new. In one moment, live is always have a dark way, unfortunately i have choosed the wrong path, and every step that i take, it make me feel so far away from my dream.

I have got stabbed by the wrong decision, suffered over the regret, and this world surround myself under the darkness. This moment made me blind, it seems i feel so guilty about my own life, it wasn't supposed to be happen like this.  i lost everything there's no more hope to reach my dream. I feel so grateful, when this suffering tragedy stops because i found a treasure one year ago.

Sometimes the bad things that happens in our live put us directly on the path to the best things that will ever happen to us.

Last year in November, at the corner of the world at night, I found her from my social media, i don’t know why i feel so curious about her at that time. I try to figure out who exactly this person. When i see her for the first time, i can’t believe my own eyes. She is shining like a gold, her smile is great, her eyes steal my attention. For the first time i become speechless and feel the greatest unbelieveable feeling in my life. This treasure become part of my dream after that. I try everything to chase my dream, and there's a lot of hope to catch it and make it real. She is my treasure, i found her when there's no more hope, and i though i've gone too far, very far from my own dream.

I'm so fortunate god send me a guardian angel to guide me into the better life, help me out from the darkness, and especially bring my spirit back to conquer the fear. We've been together for a while, but problem happen between us in no time. We argued, we let emotion drag ourself very deep in a relationship conflict.  I never want it happens, but now i'm very thankful because of it we learn too many live lessons. We've been through hell so many times. As a matter of fact, we are strong together and it’s like two person in one soul.

The best decision i ever made is choosing you as my life partner and i never regret it. You help me grow, cover my weakness and burn my spirit every day. No one can do like the way you did to me. I’m back where i belong, after a long darkness way i’ve been through and i’m still survive because of you. Everything has an end, i just want to be with you until there’s no more breath in my lungs. Sometimes i regret the chance that i never take. But that’s life, experience never stops. God send me the right person to keep looking forward. This romance story is really awesome, there’s too many tragedy at first, and now we surround ourself in the perfect happiness.

Good or bad just smile, I have a lot to be thankful for, especially your existence in my life. 

Why Does Hello Fell Like Goodbye ?

When the end of the story become the hardest beggining to get through…

It's not the final worst, the last pain, and the only happines i ever had. Journey of life is a mystery, but everything happen for a reasons. I had a great story, it was a great adventure, there's too much struggle. Somehow i try to believe there still a chance against this challenge.  I know there's still a lot of progress to realize, chance to take, and homework to complete. But overall, every single step that i've ever made almost leads to nothing. I'm dissapointed after all of this, and i feel so curious about the end of this story because i achieve nothing. The end is still unpredictable i thought, but for other reasons, it might be the end of everything. We all know that consequence always exist after we make a tactical decisions. But unfortunately, not everyone in this world always ready for the unexpected risk. Sometimes the hardest thing to change, is your own mind.

Once upon a day, I took a life trip, it’s different than the others. I’d try to focus working on it. I believed i’m good for this one, compare to others adventure, this is the best of the best. Suddenly, everything changed after that. I wasn’t really good at this situation at all, but i try to enjoy even under unexpected circumstances. I’m not perfect, i made a mistake, but i always try to rebuild everything again especially hope and keep believed. This adventure is the best one, yes, but i’ve struggled too much. Challanged never stop slowing my step, problem every problem almost became the conclusion of this adventure.  I didn’t know really how to say and this is the most greatest story of my life so far that i ever had within the persistent determination. It was too fast, really, i achieved nothing. I never felt the clock is counting down and this is my biggest failure in the best way. Eventhough i already tried everything to hang on too tight on this, but it’s really hard to believe, i lost everything for nothing.

I had a great vision in this chapter, i set some goals, and i never changed my direction. I know what’s the most important things in my life. That’s why when i lost everything, i still have my last weapon to come back again like the day before i lost in this part of life. Why does hello feel like goodbye? This word stuck in my head, because i never expected the end of this was very damn worst. It’s really hard for me to stand still, be strong without motivation, be brave without doubt. It’s just so damn….complicated !

The longest adventure left some memory to remember, a huge pain to heal, and a great experience to take… 

i try to forget the bitter taste after all of this and again i try to keep moving forward. Create a big different after that hard struggle, and continue set some goal in other life story. I never stop trying, because i know struggle is part of life, dead is the only reason i quit from my hard work on everything.

This is my last adventure like this. This is not the first one, but comparing with the other adventure before, i guess i’m not good at all even i always believe anything can happen. I will take this kind of adventure again someday, but with less hard work, i think my experience will guide me without let pushing too hard again and again. I’m feeling so ambition without control at my last adventure, but stay positive is my foundation.  Now I believe which this part of life, there’s too many lesson from it. There’s another great achievement will leads to my dream, now i’m working on it.

Suffer after a biggest failure? Yes i felt that before. But with a great experience that i had, It help me to reduce the pain and motivated me to try another way to rebuild everything from the beginning again.

Time heal the wound, after a great defeat, but it takes time and depends on me how i face this challange of life. As always, try to rise again no matter what it takes, i'm gonna die trying, to get what i want to. i never tired, i always believe, i always will !

Struggle is Real

If you really want to do something, you'll find a way. If you don't, you'll find an excuse

Believe, the one necessary thing to have, when you want to achieve something. There's nothing in this life, that you can get through especially challange. Without believe in ourself, that we can through the worst, to get the best one. Once you start something, never leave it, take a good responsible to make the greatest end of it. A good responsbility, it will prove that yourself as a good man, deal with every consequence from the decision that you ever made. It's never so easy to realize, but you must keep believe, anything can happen, nothing can stop you when you think that you will able to make it true. There's too many lesson from struggle, how you get up when you get lost, how you make yourself more strong, wiser than before. It's a great way of life. One live, one chance, everyone knows about that. Conquer your fears, fight your doubts, go away from all the negative though in your head, listen to year instict. Follow your heart, make it worth.

You never know how hard you try, you must hold on as long as possible, if it has not end well, that's not the end, that's the sign that you mush push more harder, harder than you though you can do. Break your limit, lose yourself into a great struggle, it's a part of process. Now it's time to chase your dream. Even sometimes you fail at anything you try, just keep positive, let it go and learn an awesome lesson from that, you'll must be more aware and also wiser, about the step that you want to take. Keep believe, that's the most deadliest weapon that you can carry everywhere, and anytime. Full of passion is a fuel for your struggle. I've been struggle with this life, a lot of time i got lost, rise again, through the bad and the good times. Tonight i feel so great, honestly this is the biggest achievement for the first time ever for my long way challange. I struggled a lot, i tried more than once, and always failed. I try again, with more improvements, different steps, same path, a long way destination.

I'm tired once, i used to mad at myself when i'm lost. I always said this word into myself " I'm better than that, i know i'm better than that, and i can learn something from this defeat ". That's why i always push more harder, and then harder than before. Never quit, we must have a persistent determination, discipline, and consistency. Never compare yourself to the others, every people have their own way to achieve success and this is my way, i know my limit, but i like to set a new record pass my own limit. Don't lost hope before we get what we ned. You never know what will happen next, prepare yourself, for a great risk that you never expect before. You won't forget the past regret, because it's always leave some unspoken message to know. Do what you wanna do, never let darkness surround you, a lack of hope just make your hope fade slowly drive away from your soul. You never know the taste of success, before you feel the taste of failure.

I'm gonna make the rest of my life the best of my life. I'm working on myself, for myself, by myself.

Three Years And Counting

This is more than story, more than a post, and also more than a short movie project that i will release this year.

Based on true story, how i have struggled with my own life for the last three years until this moment. I'm proud still stand even there's still a scars, and wound without the cure. This project has a lot of meaning for me. Especially about how to survive in unexpected circumstances. Purpose of this project is to re-imagining about who i am three years ago before this worst condition. Overall, this is the story about my life for the last three bloody years...

There are so many unpredictable story in my life. Especially when i moved into this city three years ago. I felt empty, i lost my best friend, i'm so far away with my brother and i lost myself in the middle of nowhere. At first i tried my best to find the best of the best of anything by myselef without help from others like i had before. It seem's impossible for me to share what i feel to my close friends. I can't make a good decision, and i never know if i make a mistake so i just go with the flow. It's very hard to believe, when you lost everything just in one moment, and you can't believe that because it is very important for your life. I never enjoyed everything too much, like the old time before i came into this cruel city. I used to be fun for, and no one ever know how deep i'm feeling lonely when i moved into this nightmare city. I'm not belong here, i'm not okay without my crazy best friends, it's unbelieveable. I face every single thing on my own, When i made a huge mistake, i didn't notice it's gonna ruined my life. No one watch my back. I fell in love with someone that i never did before in this city. For the first time i ruined my life because of love. Love is a journey that i never feel before. I can't help myself. There's too many lesson from that, but that's not the end of it. It's just the beggining to make my life more damn worst than before. Love made my life so complicated, i couldn't sleep well, almost six or seventh months. I made everything became so hard on myself. It's not funny anymore, when you cannot find happiness again in your life because you can easily predict what will happen next.  I tried to rise, but i'm failed. I'm falling into the deepest hole of failure, and crawling into the end of it but it's seem's i never made it. I keep believe, into something that i thing it's impossible to be true in my life.

Faith, hope, passion, it's all gone in no time. I live my life like along an empty world. I used a mask of happines, laugh, and pretend there's nothing happen. At first this happines mask is very useful, but as the days goes by, it cracked and falling into pieces. I'm so far away from my biggest dream, because of fucking love. This is the first biggest challange in my life. I never felt pain in my life before, i think this gonna be the first and the last, but the other came so fast and unpredictable. I try to regain my passion, rebuild everything, but i made a same mistake twice. I never know, because there's no one by my side, especially brother and close friends. No one like them can give me an advice, i don't know why i completely always believe in myself after i figure out everything alone. My new friend in this city gave me advice, i respect that, but still i believe in myself, and i did'nt really care what others think. I took some big risk, i'm failed again, but it's not because of me, there's some important reason that i cannot tell you. After that, i'm very dissapointed, but i don't know why, i still try to find the right person who can stand by my side. Every single day was a nightmare. When you try everything you could, but it never leads to something. It's hurt you know, when you have noticed that you're fought for nothing. I'm lost, everything dissapear from my life. i'm suffered enough, but it's never enough, more comes and stabbed me from behind. Rise from the failure, struggle, fight againts my own thought. I try not to give up too early, i never realize that my life became so damn hard after moved into this city.

It's hard for me now, to explain about what was happen in my life. This story bring back some bad memory from the broken past, leave a thousand unaswered question and neglected opportunity. But in purpose for this project, i just wanna remind myself, that i fought so hard with this cruel life for the last three years. I'm proud, i'm still keep positive even there's still a bitter taste from this unexpected scenes. I'll tell everything about what's going on, and maybe it will inspire all of us how not to give up and refuse to fail. I never want to make this honestly. I just want to make achievement for myself. about how i've been survive, and i never know about tommorow, it is possible, to make a great struggle again than before or i just learn from my great experience and make everything looks like very easy. So far i wouldn't enjoy everything, but i learn some important thing for my life. Keep looking forward and be more brave to take a big risk and deal with the consequence. I lost in so many different situation. But after that, i'll be more wiser than before to make a big revolution of my entire life. I don't wanna make a same mistake twice, i never want to ruin myself again because of love especially, there are so many think to realize with struggle, but fuck yeah, it's not love! It will never happen again, not anymore !

Three years and counting, from my six life chapter it means i try to bring back the great memory, passion, from 2011, when i don't think too much about what's going on in my life, i just enjoy everything without depending my happines from love. I really feel comfortable doing all my hobby, be different, and stay up all night with some friends, but now everthing has changed. I'm so bless, god still give me chance, to make up my life, and be the best of the best than the others! Leave everything behind with no regret!

Be what you want to be, do what you like with passion. Never let nightmare surround your day. Stay optimistic. Hustle hard !

The Nightfalls

There's nothing to make me proud, holding a thousand question without answer, and bury deep in the night sky.

Light is gone after the sunset, what i'm doing is wandering. About everything that i've reached, and about another life goal i want to achieve. Every single night, i always do the same. It's more easy for me to take a precious moment in the night, breath the fresh air, keep calm and think about what i'm going to do next. Life is always unpredictable, as far as i go in my life path, i never try to avoid that sometimes plan it's not gonna work. When i'm down with life cirmustances,i just try to clear my perspective, and keep moving forward. There are too many chance that i've lost and never see that again. I've made some mistake, in this cruel life, but i always believe that life is a beautiful struggle.

At night i can make everything clear even for a couple hours, flash back some good and bad memories, try to take some lesson from it. There's no regret if i can understand the lesson from my life journet. When i wake up in the morning, i had my usual activities, and then after all of the challange in a day, i came back to my house, and before slept, i did the same thing, re-arranged my plan for the next day. Sometimes i felt really bored because mostly i already knew what's gonna happened for my day. I want a big revolution, but somehow, i'm confused how i could realize that. There's too many mystery in my life, i did everything i could to get through it, and it's almost made me forgot about what i'm going to realized. I've been in this city for the last three years. There's too many bad things happened in my life. I didn't really expected about that, it's my decision to take the risk, but i never realized the consequence is more worst than everything.

My biggest revolution happened five months ago. When someone came into my life. She have changed everything about my life. I didn't see it's coming. I never regret to take this life with you. I just felt really guilty when i'm the reason when you sad, but overall it's just a relationship story. I don't know how to describe it very clearly, i'm just proud after what she have done for me. I was very surprised, it never happened before in my life. I'm very happy, but the sadness moment is when we have argued the different main ideas, and i almost lost her. I think about that, when i'm really dissapointed why i didn't want to gave in and let her opinion became the conclusion. I have learned a lot from my life experienced, but in some case it's not really help me to figure out the solution.

When the night falls, i couldn't barely breath, it's seem's i'm gonna lost everything. She had a really good reason why i choose to win, and never give up deal with all of the challange in this life. She always became my motivation, and i don't want to let her down again because of me. So far until this day, we're still together. If i were a sniper, and then she is my spotter. The relationship between a sniper and his spotter is very important. First and foremost, the two depend on each other for survival. Sniper teams work in the no-man's-land between or behind battle lines. They often have little or no support from their unit, and if they don't accomplish their mission, the safety of the whole platoon may be compromised.

Being the spotter in a sniper team is a sort of sniper apprenticeship. The sniper is the team leader. He coordinates with command to put together the mission. In the field, he has the final word in determining the route, position, rendezvous point and escape route. A spotter learns in the field from his sniper and then eventually gets his own team to lead. You can imagine that, she is more than important for me. Not only just make me happy and feel confident to face everything, she also to guide my life and aware me if there's somethings wrong.

If one of us fail to do our duty, and then our relationship is over. We've already work together and we know each other so well especially the characteristic, emotion, love, and everything else. I just need more time, to be more wiser than before, i'm her leader, it's depend on me where i'm gonna lead her, to the ruin or the glourious day for us, it's our wedding day, and we're still waiting to realize that when the time has comes. The most important thing to do is keep believe each other, that's the foundation how strong you will not give up when the problem try to seperate us. I try to beat my myself first. Sometimes, the hardest thing to change is my mind. I want to be responsible for the decisions in my life at all cost. I will bring her to the next level, and start a greatest beggining again.

Every night, i fall asleep with you in my heart, i promise to be the warrior who fight all your nightmare and the messenger to bring all your sweet dream.

Your Tears Is My Mistake

I’ve made a mistake, life doesn’t come with intructions. Four months ago, i thought i was the very happy person, i found someone again after a long nightmare for the last three years. There’s too many beautiful moment between us, i never felt happy before like that moment. If someone make you sad, i’ll be the one who make him suffer. But it’s never happen between us. I made her sad, cried, and i just make her became really dissapointed because of me. I didn’t know it’s coming, everytime we used to talk everyday, but since you've left me alonei feel so empty. I know it’s really hard for me to get another chance, i don’t know how i can be the best one again for her. I’m dying without her, suffer and i’m awake it’s the biggest mistake tonight. I remember everything since we’ve first met until this second, it’s really hurting me, but i know you feel more dissapointed because what i’ve done to you. I don’t know if someday we will be seperate, alone, and try to open again a new leaf. It’s really hard for me, and i just wanna give up before the day will come. I become so melancholic when i trap in this scene. I just fear losing you, hurt you again, and i don’t wanna live anymore if i’m gonna spent the rest of my life without you

Tonight is the best regret in my life. I know there’s too many girl out there, but in my mind, no one can compare you my only one. No one like you, it’s impossible for me to realize another relationship with the other one. I used to be happy with you, and i don’t wanna happy with someone else. I’m not perfect, and i also made same mistake again and again. I can’t keep your feeling, it’s just my biggest fucking mistake. I want to surrender, if every day i live without you. I don’t plan about commit suicide, i just wanna someone stab me from behind to end all the pain and worst nightmare. I know i take this feeling too hard, but i cannot make everything better than before without you. You are my spirit, i found myself in you. I live without passion after you started hate me because of unpredictable problem. I try my best to become the best one for you again if you want me to be a part of your life again. I’m broken, useless, regretfull, what should i do to regain my spirit? I can’t do anything. You are my spirit, without you, i’m just a broken man, and dying slowly like a loser.

Everything leads to nothing at last. All i can do know is hope, there’s still a little bit chance for me to bring your smile again into the universe, and i’m the reason behind it.

Wings Of Liberty

For this story, i felt so happy at the beggining. When i realized i still have some chance to make up everything. As the days goes by, i’ve struggled a lot since started this case. It’s very hard for me to stand and againts everything on my own. I lost some good chance, i’ve destroy almost all of the important things in this story. I don’t wanna wish everything again, it’s just hurting me when all the plan leads to biggest failure. Hard for me to describe it, it’s become more hard for me to rebuild my life again. I’ve someone by myside, but for all of my operation, i am still a lone wolf. I just don’t wanna make her hard when try to think about what i want to reach. This sickness moment sometimes give me something to think about. I like every single challange, even it’s actually leads me to greatest defeat, and just give me a little bit positive benefit to take.

I don’t know how much longer i will live in this earth, i never stop to carry my spirit everwhere i go. I wanna try to realize my biggest dream, and make her proud having me. I believe there’s still to many unpredictable problem in the future. I try to make up my mind, forget the bad nightmare in the past, and stay focus on the thing that i want to do. It’s give me a little bit progress in this operation. Wings of liberty means that i’m ready to be free again after a disaster Broken Wings operation. I’ve made some operation every month, just to make me more easy to find what’s the biggest problem that i’ve made, and what will i do to solve it, and it can be more specific to see the progress. Even sometimes it’s for me too difficult to realize it on my own, because i try to figure it out without any help from the other people. It’s driving me crazy when i knew that i made hard on myself.

The certain things for this life is hope, struggle, and prove with action. Too many theory will kill you, just do what you love, make everyone around you proud after you take some risk but it will leads you to biggest succesfull reality in life. I just want learn about what’s the meaning of live. This operation was really disaster, but i still have a breath, it means there still a chance for me to construct my life again. Life is so unpredictable. It’s not about the happy ending, it’s about a story. Will i make everything be better than before again? There’s no telling what tommorow brings.Never losehope, i’ll never give up even it’s leads me to suffering moment again and again. I’d choose to be a fighter, warior in the shadow, that never know which path that we can choose, just let it flow and become the strongest person at last. Sometimes, even it’s not my plan, god choose me better plan to see what’s inside my mind. I’m just so grateful, although i hate myself for some part, but it leave me something to learn. Thanks god, i’m very thankfull. Now i’ll open the next case for my next operation. It call “Eagle of Shadow”

Every new day is another chance to change your life

Broken Faith

My heart beat so fast, blood slowly fill the veins, i'm falling from the bitterly dissapointed reality. This was the day i feared the most. It’s seem’s i lost a lot of chance to rebuild it. I made a huge mistake, and none can rebuild it. I’m suffer without you, dying when i don’t keep in touch with you, Honestly i never felt pain in my live before like what happened in this midnight. I broke your heart, i know it’s very hard for you to trust me completely again, i did a stupid things when i was took a picture with my class friends. I really regret it, i can’t stand now for feeling this way. All the day goes by after that, i just try to believe that nightmare surround my life time. It’s the biggest failure in my life after the unpredictable day for me.. Why i did it again? Why am i so fool and reckless to managed all of this bullshit? Damn, i just make everything more worst than before. I don’t know really how to say, this night, is the greatest worst that i ever held.

I can’t do anything now but enjoy this pain stabbing my heart. It’s killing me, i can’t face all of this. I almost give up from this scene. All hope is gone, An instrumen of the rhythm of my life dissapear from the surface of my soul. Everything fade away slowly, leave my soul suffering from this love. Every unforgettable moment in the past, become my greatest nightmare for me now. I’m afraid you will leave me behind and find another one. I can’t imagine that, that’s gonna be really dissapointed for me after all. How i can survive from this wound? I’m better of dead rather than losing you in my side. I’m gonna lose everything if you make me stand alone again. I can’t rebuild my life just by myself. I always need you to help me figure out every single challange in this life. It’s take too long for me to regain your trust again. If it possible to make your trust completely like the other time in the past, i’ll do it even for the rest of my life, i’ll be waiting and never surrender just to fix it.

I don’t care about everything, i will pass every single day just to regain your faith for me. It’s really hard, but it’s not impossible. I’m gonna spent all of my life just to do it, and i want to take an oath if you still don’t believe everthing that i will do to make our relationship better than before. I’ll take the risk of everthing that i say, that i make and that i promise. It’s hard for me to say and i don’t want to remember anything that will make me feel dissapointed, yeah, it’s my darkness past. I live from that, i fall and rise again and again just because one reason, Hold the suffer and keep believeing even it’s too difficult for me to realize that. I thought is just a game, easy to play, fast to conquer. True love is when you loving someone and still trying your best to stick together even the strom of leap almost seperate each other. I don’t wanna lost myself again in the same hole, i try to be more stronger, wiser to take my next step for the further action. I'll fly like a bird, reach up the sky, and get through everything that will make my step slowly

This is the last chance for me, to make every single thing better than before. I don’t care about my worst pain that word i cannot describe. I’ll take this scene, without any doubt, and i cover myself with persistent determination. I’ll make my own way just to make sure that i choose the right path to do this love quest. I wish the best at all, before start the difficult challange just to regain your feeling to me in this broken faith operation. This is it, what’s done it’s done, i just try to keep looking forward even it’s too hard when i try to learn about this problem. Hopefully i can learn from my failure, and be more strong after all of this kind of challange that almost make my spirit lost in this world. I’m just so fortunate that i still have one more chance. Fight like a warrior, face all of this like a soldiers, and die as a conqueror. 

Anyone can give up, because it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you feel apart, that’s true strength.

Welcome To My Life

When i was suffer, i just remembered what i though at that moment, i said “i believe, i don’t know how, but i will find happines with love again”. After a disaster tragedy for the last 3 years especially when i trapped in a beautiful nightmare, i cannot believe what i got and what’s left for me. I lost my spirit, i lost some great chance, and for sure i miss a big evolution in my life. It’s hurting me actually when i remember that moment, i guess i never sucess again in the future, because i lost every important thing in my life. So far i’m just so bless, after spent one year in loneliness and every single day i try to believe that my dream with her is impossible to realize. It’s seem i want to be a lone wolf, until the day i get married someday. Every night i tried to heal my wound, find a pain killer in the darkness night, but i’m dying inside, i used a fake smile everyday. It’s really hard for me to face the reality and this is it! What’s done it’s done, just leave it and never regret it. Keep moving forward into the next chapter of my life adventure.

I follow my heart, and pretend that i don’t need someone again to re-colour my day with happiness of love. It’s become more easier for me to get a further result. I knew when someone falling in love with me, But i completely don’t care about her feeling. I’m still waiting for the right moment and make a good decision when the days come. It’s like sniper, holding....waiting....and never get bored to find a good time to end all of this sickness moment. I just wanna say it’s really hard, but this is life. Life can be so cruel sometimes, when someone without love try to holding on and be a good survival in this unpredictable life. I cannot sleep well, i can’t get a good health, i really confuse because i take this feeling too hard, and i don’t expect when everything goes wrong because of love. Stuck in reverse and try to get back again into the past moment. I fight my own self, i don’t wanna to be selfish anymore. I don’t believe every girl, when they said “hey rhesa, i like you, and i want you in my life”. I though that’s a bullshit, i don’t trust them obviously. If i never try, i will never know. Someday, unexpected moment happen...

I don’t know how to describe it, but so far i’m really happy having someone again in my life. Yes i know, in the first time i don’t believe her, and i pretend that she don’t like me. I try to analyze her character, her habit and also her life silently. I’m really satisfied when overall she have a good life. I try to give her a chance, but with very very slow progress.  I just wanna see, if she surrender and give up with the progress that i give, i think she just like my outlook and style, not my character. She still holding on and she become my lovely girl now.  I’m very surprised, her ambition make me feel very impressive with this progress. When i gave her a chance to rebuild my life, haha i never knew that she made it now. So far even it’s just one week we’ve been together, but i really believe that she will be my partner in this mysterious life. I do really love her so much even it’s too short for us being together, i don’t know why, i just believe in her to make up my life to be better than before. I’m really proud of her, and especially her ambition when she tried to give me signal that she love me, i just wanna with her every single second. I never bored, because i already learn too much from my mistake in the past, and biggest failure.

From now on, i believe in her and hopefully she’ll be my last one. Because for me being a part of a relationship is like a full time job. We must serious and never play with it. Heart is like a fragile, you must keep it save how hard the situation is, or you will have a serious problem.  Build a commitment, trust each other, stick together when suffer, and everythings gonna be okay at last

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage